Tuesday, June 03, 2003
Mom's Operation is tomorrow
Well, mom's at Mayo clinic, operation is tomorrow morning. I wish she was here right now.
I'm still feeling divine joy flowing from my heart, spreading over my face in a constant series of smiles.
Feeling bit distant, a bit melancholy.
It's like being some kind of confection with a white fluffy scrumptious inside, a cookie crust and dark chocolate coating.
As always when I focus on my body or inside my body I fly into rapture. Been listening to really mellow music, when I focus on the music I feel the distancing, the feeling of being alone, separate, the abyss. Seems like I'll be changing the music. Way deep I can feel little Sandy, the pure form without connection to the comfort of the rest of the consciousness, ready to burst into tears, crying for her mother, frightened, beyond being comforted.
Think I'll take care of eating, do some angel work with little Sandy, and check out Ron Roth's book on prayer.
I know that the Goddess/God has her attention on mom's healing, that her angels are there assisting and the divine light beings are helping.
I'm still feeling divine joy flowing from my heart, spreading over my face in a constant series of smiles.
Feeling bit distant, a bit melancholy.
It's like being some kind of confection with a white fluffy scrumptious inside, a cookie crust and dark chocolate coating.
As always when I focus on my body or inside my body I fly into rapture. Been listening to really mellow music, when I focus on the music I feel the distancing, the feeling of being alone, separate, the abyss. Seems like I'll be changing the music. Way deep I can feel little Sandy, the pure form without connection to the comfort of the rest of the consciousness, ready to burst into tears, crying for her mother, frightened, beyond being comforted.
Think I'll take care of eating, do some angel work with little Sandy, and check out Ron Roth's book on prayer.
I know that the Goddess/God has her attention on mom's healing, that her angels are there assisting and the divine light beings are helping.
