Tuesday, December 23, 2003
Sunday in the bathtub came to a new concept. Perhaps my function is to bless.
When younger I was telekonetic. Shut myself down after I caused damage for someone for my own amusement. I was amusing myself rather poorly because I was pissed off. Don't know how I shut myself off, only that I thought 'I shouldn't do that.' However, it's like having an unused skill set. I already know I can do this stuff, it's not a matter of if I can do it or not, it's a matter of how do I get it working again.
Sunday I'm in the tub, warm and comfey, reading a book on Christian history, thinking about use of powers.
I had a empty diet cherry coke can on the side of the tub. As an exercise I started trying different things to get it to move without physically touching it, including asking different ascended masters to move it and after no movement asking angels to move it.. still no movement. Then as I was looking at the can *wham* it hit me how incredible the can was. The nature of the Aluminum and the rock it came from, the vibrancy of the painted graphics, and then a flood of joy in the revealed emanation of the Divine.
And then it hit me.
I am not about the 'powers' thing. I am the I am. I am love. I do not have these other models to work from. Mine is only to be, to listen, to trust the goddess, to be the goddess. It's all one. It's all the divine. It's all love. Each to their own. I do not need to have powers, that has all ready been experienced. I am living love, time to perfect being love.
To use my gifts, love, I no longer have an ego identity, my world is to stay soul connected, to be a pure instrument of my soul/the divine.
I was thinking.. ok, so help me be connected stronger to the divine, show me the truth, knock over this can. *Can remains unmoved.* *Suddenly I truly see the can and go into bliss.*
So, that was the answer. The answer to showing me that I was truly connected was not to perform some spiritual energy over physical energy display (knocking over a can), but to show me the light in the can and take me into the realm of ecstasy.
When younger I was telekonetic. Shut myself down after I caused damage for someone for my own amusement. I was amusing myself rather poorly because I was pissed off. Don't know how I shut myself off, only that I thought 'I shouldn't do that.' However, it's like having an unused skill set. I already know I can do this stuff, it's not a matter of if I can do it or not, it's a matter of how do I get it working again.
Sunday I'm in the tub, warm and comfey, reading a book on Christian history, thinking about use of powers.
I had a empty diet cherry coke can on the side of the tub. As an exercise I started trying different things to get it to move without physically touching it, including asking different ascended masters to move it and after no movement asking angels to move it.. still no movement. Then as I was looking at the can *wham* it hit me how incredible the can was. The nature of the Aluminum and the rock it came from, the vibrancy of the painted graphics, and then a flood of joy in the revealed emanation of the Divine.
And then it hit me.
I am not about the 'powers' thing. I am the I am. I am love. I do not have these other models to work from. Mine is only to be, to listen, to trust the goddess, to be the goddess. It's all one. It's all the divine. It's all love. Each to their own. I do not need to have powers, that has all ready been experienced. I am living love, time to perfect being love.
To use my gifts, love, I no longer have an ego identity, my world is to stay soul connected, to be a pure instrument of my soul/the divine.
I was thinking.. ok, so help me be connected stronger to the divine, show me the truth, knock over this can. *Can remains unmoved.* *Suddenly I truly see the can and go into bliss.*
So, that was the answer. The answer to showing me that I was truly connected was not to perform some spiritual energy over physical energy display (knocking over a can), but to show me the light in the can and take me into the realm of ecstasy.
