Tuesday, May 04, 2004
Fear God??????????????
Long have I been wrapping my mind around the 'fear god' directions. In love consciousness G-d is LOVE.
Latest concept to arise is 'fear being separated from G-d'.
I was just watching or reading something where the dialogue went something like, "if the blessings for the crops of rain and (something) come from god, shall we not strive not to anger him?"
Anger god???? What's up with that?
I do not get the 'fear' god instructions. My working theory at this level of revelation is that it means 'fear separating yourself from god' and 'fear doing something that would cause the Active Presence of G-d from separating Itself from you.'
Then there are these instructions about 'Fear and Love God'. Is that just a guy thing?
For me the 'fear' of G-d exist only as the 'fear' of separation from the Presence of G-d.
First.
The 'fear' of me moving my consciousness away from the source of all life, of all goodness.
When I move my awareness into "ego - false self" consciousness I am moving my consciousness away from G-d awareness. I am leaving my bliss and falling into the pain of mass consciousness. This is the where I 'fear' separating my consciousness from the Goddess, from the source of love, life, joy, and all goodness.
Second.
The 'fear' of the Presence of G-d pulling Itself away, concealing Itself from me.
Feeling the Active Presence of G-d conceal Itself, pulling away to a level that I could no longer connect to with my Heart energy happened only once.
It happened on Yom Kippor and put me in a soul panic.
I could feel the Divine still in my cellular structure of my body, but I could not feel the Love pumping freely through my Heart.
While I was davening in Shul, I thought, great, I'm going to fall over dead and none of these people will even know why. I begged and implored the Divine Presence to return. I was in soul fear and panic.
Suddenly it became clear to me when Christ called out from the cross, "Why did you forsake me?", what he was crying about. It wasn't about being crucified, he had a handle on that. It was that the Divine Presence suddenly pulled away. It is the most frightening thing on a soul level. The Divine Presence returned to him. It also returned to me after the closing of the Gate and the blowing of the Shofar.
In the time of living in the desert with the Active Presence of G-d in the camp all of reality was relative to the Active Presence of G-d.
Judgment was instantaneous.
At times a blemish in consciousness of the tribes would exist which in response the Active Presences would depart, lest judgment would extinguish the tribes. After correction and cleansing the active presence would return. For example the golden calf.
So, I'm thinking the 'fear' reference is really about doing anything that would separate one's consciousness and level of beingness from the Active Presence of G-d.
My thought is that instruction got twisted into the idea of fearing the wrath of god as some big bully that ya better not piss off.
Latest concept to arise is 'fear being separated from G-d'.
I was just watching or reading something where the dialogue went something like, "if the blessings for the crops of rain and (something) come from god, shall we not strive not to anger him?"
Anger god???? What's up with that?
I do not get the 'fear' god instructions. My working theory at this level of revelation is that it means 'fear separating yourself from god' and 'fear doing something that would cause the Active Presence of G-d from separating Itself from you.'
Then there are these instructions about 'Fear and Love God'. Is that just a guy thing?
For me the 'fear' of G-d exist only as the 'fear' of separation from the Presence of G-d.
First.
The 'fear' of me moving my consciousness away from the source of all life, of all goodness.
When I move my awareness into "ego - false self" consciousness I am moving my consciousness away from G-d awareness. I am leaving my bliss and falling into the pain of mass consciousness. This is the where I 'fear' separating my consciousness from the Goddess, from the source of love, life, joy, and all goodness.
Second.
The 'fear' of the Presence of G-d pulling Itself away, concealing Itself from me.
Feeling the Active Presence of G-d conceal Itself, pulling away to a level that I could no longer connect to with my Heart energy happened only once.
It happened on Yom Kippor and put me in a soul panic.
I could feel the Divine still in my cellular structure of my body, but I could not feel the Love pumping freely through my Heart.
While I was davening in Shul, I thought, great, I'm going to fall over dead and none of these people will even know why. I begged and implored the Divine Presence to return. I was in soul fear and panic.
Suddenly it became clear to me when Christ called out from the cross, "Why did you forsake me?", what he was crying about. It wasn't about being crucified, he had a handle on that. It was that the Divine Presence suddenly pulled away. It is the most frightening thing on a soul level. The Divine Presence returned to him. It also returned to me after the closing of the Gate and the blowing of the Shofar.
In the time of living in the desert with the Active Presence of G-d in the camp all of reality was relative to the Active Presence of G-d.
Judgment was instantaneous.
At times a blemish in consciousness of the tribes would exist which in response the Active Presences would depart, lest judgment would extinguish the tribes. After correction and cleansing the active presence would return. For example the golden calf.
So, I'm thinking the 'fear' reference is really about doing anything that would separate one's consciousness and level of beingness from the Active Presence of G-d.
My thought is that instruction got twisted into the idea of fearing the wrath of god as some big bully that ya better not piss off.
