Tuesday, June 01, 2004
Vertigo
Week before last, awoke to Vertigo. Snapped on a neck collar, drove on down to Cottonwood. Dr. Lipari fixed it. Couldn't keep my focus on an object for longer than 5 seconds, but the spinning was totally gone.
(As a note in the always taken care of by the Divine category, I was nearly out of money and when I called Lipari he said he'd see me for free, from having stood me up on a previous appointment.)
Anyway, I've got energy all over the place. Feels a bit like having fish swimming up my spine. Energy seems to build where ever I have my focus. My neck and my face, especially my checks where I'm smiling all the time seem to be swelling with energy. Tonight I've started focusing on my root chakra and my feet. Focusing on my feet seems to balance the energy and relieve the pressure in my head/neck/face.
I need to get grounded.
I feel hot, cold, slightly dizzy, kind of faint.
With mom, of blessed memory, passing, I've been resorting goals. Decided on ascending. I implored the Divine to aid in this during Shavous, completing the liberation started at Passover and worked upon with the Omer.
Big big big energy shifting. My morning dream was me learning something from the Divine. That's new. First time I've awoken to observing myself getting Divine instruction. Usually I get direction when I'm awake. First time I've been aware of it while I'm sleeping.
Also, refining my kosherist. Normally to ground I'd have some beef. Now the only beef I have is Hebrew National hotdogs and sausages. I can definatly feel my inner chield freak that I might let her get ill.
Could drive to Phoenix to kosher market. Advantages to connecting to the orthodox community there. However, think I'll order over the internet for now.
Feeling really really 'light headed'.
Note on constants.
I'm always rippling with ecstasy and bliss. Even while driving down to Lipari's with vertigo, everything was so beautiful, and I so grateful, so happy.
(As a note in the always taken care of by the Divine category, I was nearly out of money and when I called Lipari he said he'd see me for free, from having stood me up on a previous appointment.)
Anyway, I've got energy all over the place. Feels a bit like having fish swimming up my spine. Energy seems to build where ever I have my focus. My neck and my face, especially my checks where I'm smiling all the time seem to be swelling with energy. Tonight I've started focusing on my root chakra and my feet. Focusing on my feet seems to balance the energy and relieve the pressure in my head/neck/face.
I need to get grounded.
I feel hot, cold, slightly dizzy, kind of faint.
With mom, of blessed memory, passing, I've been resorting goals. Decided on ascending. I implored the Divine to aid in this during Shavous, completing the liberation started at Passover and worked upon with the Omer.
Big big big energy shifting. My morning dream was me learning something from the Divine. That's new. First time I've awoken to observing myself getting Divine instruction. Usually I get direction when I'm awake. First time I've been aware of it while I'm sleeping.
Also, refining my kosherist. Normally to ground I'd have some beef. Now the only beef I have is Hebrew National hotdogs and sausages. I can definatly feel my inner chield freak that I might let her get ill.
Could drive to Phoenix to kosher market. Advantages to connecting to the orthodox community there. However, think I'll order over the internet for now.
Feeling really really 'light headed'.
Note on constants.
I'm always rippling with ecstasy and bliss. Even while driving down to Lipari's with vertigo, everything was so beautiful, and I so grateful, so happy.
