Tuesday, March 30, 2004
Mom crossed over
Tuesday, March 30, 2004 - Nissan 8, 5764, between 4:53 - 4:55 am, mom crossed over. In attendence were myself, mom's husband Tom, mom's step daughters, Terri, Monica, Sharon, and son-in-law Tim.
Tuesday, March 16, 2004
Bro sends email, "mom is dying, don't rock the boat."
hmm.. up late, well normal late for me, dealing with selling a unit to Matthieu in France, woke up to find he called, love hearing his voice on the answering machine. :)
Having my first cup of coffee, checking emails... there it is, letter bomb from my brother. He's sent me a 'mom is dying, don't rock the boat' email, with attached pictures and a brochure from Hospice. It's like this very sticky icky collusion that they all participate in. 'Be sad, be supportive, don't intervene, better place, we as Christians, blah blah.'
In truth, I'm sitting here, smiling, resting on a heart filled with joy, drinking my coffee, (fresh ground, organic french roast, french press, with heavy cream).
I'm a love being. I exist in love, joy, and bliss.
I work daily on clearing my chakras, removing fears and doubts, being alert to the ego and the false beliefs of the human condition. Staying in goddess consciousness, in the I AM consciousness.
Let's say I'm sitting on the edge of my sparkling marble pool, birds singing around me, angels flying about, music playing, sun shining. Hey, let's not forget my incredible cat Spring! Ok, so that is here. Here where I have consciously created a temple.
Now there is THERE. Back in Wisconsin. Where the tribe consciousness is dark, sticky, ego beliefs, human condition. It's like sitting next to a tar pit, in a smog filled environment. Hm.. the LaBrea tar pit meets Mexico City air pollution.
I wonder if this is how souls feel when they descend into the world of form?
I can tell you what my soul would have been saying, 'Oh crap.'
Ok, part of the 'watch the synchronism' thing. My bro says regarding being back in Wisconsin, 'put on your game face'. And here's today's Chabad Daily dose from the Rebbe, of blessed memory.
B"H
Know Your Strength
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From your challenges you may know your strengths.
You did not make yourself. You did not choose your parents, nor did you design the environment that nurtured you.
The One who brought you to this world, who knew you before you were conceived and who fashioned you in the womb -- He knew intimately all the challenges you would meet, your faults, your struggles. He was the one who designed they should be there.
And for each brick wall, He provided you a ladder. For each chasm a bridge. For each mountain a deep reserve of superhuman strength to surprise even your own self.
When one of those challenges arises, you need only imagine what it must take to overcome -- and you can be confident that strength is within you.
A Daily Dose of Wisdom from the Rebbe
-words and condensation by Tzvi Freeman
23 Adar, 5764 * March 16, 2004
Well, let's go skiing! :)
Arizona Snowbowl
Having my first cup of coffee, checking emails... there it is, letter bomb from my brother. He's sent me a 'mom is dying, don't rock the boat' email, with attached pictures and a brochure from Hospice. It's like this very sticky icky collusion that they all participate in. 'Be sad, be supportive, don't intervene, better place, we as Christians, blah blah.'
In truth, I'm sitting here, smiling, resting on a heart filled with joy, drinking my coffee, (fresh ground, organic french roast, french press, with heavy cream).
I'm a love being. I exist in love, joy, and bliss.
I work daily on clearing my chakras, removing fears and doubts, being alert to the ego and the false beliefs of the human condition. Staying in goddess consciousness, in the I AM consciousness.
Let's say I'm sitting on the edge of my sparkling marble pool, birds singing around me, angels flying about, music playing, sun shining. Hey, let's not forget my incredible cat Spring! Ok, so that is here. Here where I have consciously created a temple.
Now there is THERE. Back in Wisconsin. Where the tribe consciousness is dark, sticky, ego beliefs, human condition. It's like sitting next to a tar pit, in a smog filled environment. Hm.. the LaBrea tar pit meets Mexico City air pollution.
I wonder if this is how souls feel when they descend into the world of form?
I can tell you what my soul would have been saying, 'Oh crap.'
Ok, part of the 'watch the synchronism' thing. My bro says regarding being back in Wisconsin, 'put on your game face'. And here's today's Chabad Daily dose from the Rebbe, of blessed memory.
B"H
Know Your Strength
------------------
From your challenges you may know your strengths.
You did not make yourself. You did not choose your parents, nor did you design the environment that nurtured you.
The One who brought you to this world, who knew you before you were conceived and who fashioned you in the womb -- He knew intimately all the challenges you would meet, your faults, your struggles. He was the one who designed they should be there.
And for each brick wall, He provided you a ladder. For each chasm a bridge. For each mountain a deep reserve of superhuman strength to surprise even your own self.
When one of those challenges arises, you need only imagine what it must take to overcome -- and you can be confident that strength is within you.
A Daily Dose of Wisdom from the Rebbe
-words and condensation by Tzvi Freeman
23 Adar, 5764 * March 16, 2004
Well, let's go skiing! :)
Arizona Snowbowl
Monday, March 15, 2004
Kinaesthetic learners
Computer | Chabad.org
This suggests an interesting parallel in bringing our fellow Jew closer to Torah... we inform him that he need not wait until he fully understands these commandments, but can perform them in the manner of Na'aseh v'nishma; first we will do and then we will understand.
Wow, this just in. (hehe, I get information and realizations in chunks)
At the giving of the Torah we said as a tribe, "we will do and then we will understand", in acceptance of the Torah.
Here's the flash.
We are kinaesthetic learners. We learn through the experience.
Like doing a Purim basket this last Purim. I did it, because it's part of Purim. It was while I was doing it, experiencing doing it, that I received the 'revelation' of what I was doing.
I didn't realize that the entire tribe/soul was like that!
This suggests an interesting parallel in bringing our fellow Jew closer to Torah... we inform him that he need not wait until he fully understands these commandments, but can perform them in the manner of Na'aseh v'nishma; first we will do and then we will understand.
Wow, this just in. (hehe, I get information and realizations in chunks)
At the giving of the Torah we said as a tribe, "we will do and then we will understand", in acceptance of the Torah.
Here's the flash.
We are kinaesthetic learners. We learn through the experience.
Like doing a Purim basket this last Purim. I did it, because it's part of Purim. It was while I was doing it, experiencing doing it, that I received the 'revelation' of what I was doing.
I didn't realize that the entire tribe/soul was like that!
Friday, March 12, 2004
Reality in Tidy Boxes
B"H
Reality in Tidy Boxes
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Tell me you found G-d in a tidy package, I will tell you that is not G-d, that is Mind.
Tell me you found G-d in the limitless beyond-beyond space, beyond time-that too is not G-d. That too is Mind.
Where the boundless dwells within a bounded space, where darkness shines, where silence sings, where bitterness is sweet and a moment lives forever-there is G-d; there is the essence of all that is real.
A Daily Dose of Wisdom from the Rebbe
-words and condensation by Tzvi Freeman
18 Adar, 5764 * March 11, 2004
Reality in Tidy Boxes
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Tell me you found G-d in a tidy package, I will tell you that is not G-d, that is Mind.
Tell me you found G-d in the limitless beyond-beyond space, beyond time-that too is not G-d. That too is Mind.
Where the boundless dwells within a bounded space, where darkness shines, where silence sings, where bitterness is sweet and a moment lives forever-there is G-d; there is the essence of all that is real.
A Daily Dose of Wisdom from the Rebbe
-words and condensation by Tzvi Freeman
18 Adar, 5764 * March 11, 2004
Soul Repair
B"H
Soul Repair
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How will you repair a soul?
Blind yourself to the shell of mud. Dig deeply and deeper yet, sift through the darkened embers, search for a spark that still shines. Fan that spark until a flame appears, fall in love with the flame and despise the evil that encrusts it. Until all is consumed in the warmth of that flame.
For empathy is the redeemer of love and the liberator of deeds that shine.
Soul Repair
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How will you repair a soul?
Blind yourself to the shell of mud. Dig deeply and deeper yet, sift through the darkened embers, search for a spark that still shines. Fan that spark until a flame appears, fall in love with the flame and despise the evil that encrusts it. Until all is consumed in the warmth of that flame.
For empathy is the redeemer of love and the liberator of deeds that shine.
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
Explosive Joy
B"H
Explosive Joy
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Joy is an experience of overflowing, an explosion of surprise. Something enters a person's life for which he could never be prepared and his tidy self erupts in song, dance and joy.
Approach the Divine with a calculated mind and there is no window for joy. Embrace the infinite beyond mind and joy surges downward.
A Daily Dose of Wisdom from the Rebbe
-words and condensation by Tzvi Freeman
10 Adar, 5764 * March 3, 2004
Explosive Joy
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Joy is an experience of overflowing, an explosion of surprise. Something enters a person's life for which he could never be prepared and his tidy self erupts in song, dance and joy.
Approach the Divine with a calculated mind and there is no window for joy. Embrace the infinite beyond mind and joy surges downward.
A Daily Dose of Wisdom from the Rebbe
-words and condensation by Tzvi Freeman
10 Adar, 5764 * March 3, 2004
