Mystic musings

Just talking to my brother on the phone. My Uncle Bill, of Blessed memory, passed away last Friday, June 25, 2004.

Friday for me seemed a great day. Saturday though, it was weird. Instead of being in ecstasy, I felt something somber happening. I paced around, turned off the TV, turned on the computer, checked the Hebrew date, to see if it was a day of mourning, 7th of Tamuz, nope nothing in the Hebrew calendar to suggest a day of mourning. Paced on the deck, watched the fish/plants/clouds. Paced inside. Usually I don't pace, usually I stand perfectly still (a lot). Filled the tub, added lavender oil, grabbed a ton of books, some chips and soda. Read the I AM Discourse, amazing how accurate some of the information is, when it came through such cloudy vessels.

Here's the deal. Uncle Bill had just passed over. I was having a personal day of mourning, even though I hadn't been alerted to it by anyone in the earth plane.

It's all connected. We are all connected.

I love my Uncle Bill. He was/is wonderful, gentle, and kind. Back in the day, while living in Milwaukee, Uncle Bill was on the Milwaukee's annual 10 best dressed list. He was gorgeous. When my father was off on shenanigans, it was my Uncle Bill who would step up to the plate and fill the void, helping out with our family.

I love you Uncle Bill, I love you, I love you, I love you.

Love to everyone.

hmm... suprise! Today's Monday, client needed work on Tuesday/Wednesday. hmm... I've got daylight and it's a weekday.. hmm.. Ego so doesn't know what is in the future. I had no idea that I'd be out at the lake today. It's beautiful. Ego says, I know what tomorrow will bring, be afraid, be very very afraid!!! Reality, something entirely different happens. Ego doesn't know. Pain bodies don't know. Fear doesn't know.
Marshall is dry, 'cept for a pond at the boat ramp.

Sitting on the rubber/rock boat ramp. Thoughts start. "We need to redefine 'normal'." I'm healthy, this is what healthy looks like, smiling constantly, bubbling with joy and ecstasy, alive and awake to the rush and beauty that exist in all things. Other's are diseased. The disease of ego. hmm.. maybe what I need to hit is transformative psychology. Get the therapist to redefine normal. hmm...

Contemplating sending in a customer suggestion card to Snowbowl after overhearing the lift guys comments at the top. Walking through the ferns, figuring when I'd write it, what I'd say. Sat down on small boulder, reaching out with left hand touching ferns leaf. Gorgeous. Ant walking on my hand, helped it find a spot of the fern to step onto and off of me.

Thoughts come along with visuals.

Reminded of time at grocery store. Line was long, only one line open. Thought enters to comment on it. Stay quiet, put awareness into heaven, into joy. Guy behind me starts saying the things that I had just thought. Hmm... I needn't comment on the ego world stuff.. if I had the idea, others have it, they will comment on it.

Reminded of Bush starting his thing about constitutional amendment banning same sex marriages. I said nothing. Read in the Advocate interviews with celebrities on the subject. Each idea that I had on the subject was voiced by someone. Each opinion was covered.

Hmm.. my ego ideas/reactions in the ego world are not unique.

Got image of wall of colored glass tubes. Each was something I could activate by selecting it with my consciousness. (Noticed Buddha was teaching this part.)
The question was given to me.

What is it that you will activate with your awareness?
Do you wish to activate more ego?
Do you wish to activate conflict?
Do you wish to activate Heaven?

Nothing you activate in the world of ego illusion is unique. It all has been done and is being done by the masses.

What is your wish? What will you activate?

To activate ego is beneath you.
To put your divine energy into exposing this employee is beneath you.

You are in Heaven.

What you have that is unique is to activate your awareness of Heaven.

hmm...
Then I remembered the technique of turning the issue over to my I Am conscienceness and allowing whatever balance or repair that needed to be made for peace to be made.

So I said, I call upon my I AM presences to take care of the issue of for peace.

And let it go. Got home, tossed away the address of where to send the customer suggestion.

The thing is... Remembering is so slipper. I remember and know one second, forget the next and have to be lead back to what I already know. *sigh*

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Sunday, Skyride, then off to hike a hidden(ish)boulder/Aspens/Ferns/Birds/Flowers/Insets spot.

Last Sunday laid down on boulder for amazing energy transfer. This week, looking to lay out on boulder, got stopped by a kewl cavie rock formation, with perfect pine needle ground cover over a boulder edge with the edge poking out and up like a pillow. Contemplated laying down.. hmm.. Lots of needles to brush off my coat, maybe go to clean boulder.. Suddenly from Tree... Lay down here. Ahh. Ok.
Spread out coat,(going for comfey), looking back up at tree, over left shoulder at green path through boulders, over right shoulder at Aspens, back up at tree... needles brown... hmm it's dead.

From tree: You think I'm dead and that disturbs you?
Me: Ah.. well... mom passed over, I'm here to connect with nature fairies and to heal.. so well..
Tree: There is no death. There's existence, there's form. You are morning my going out of the world of form, yet what is my form doing? It is continuing, it is breaking down, fertilizing the earth, fertilizing the seeds that will again grown into this type of form. It's all continuing. You are looking at a stage. This is return stage. Existence is a gift, form is a gift, it is not what we are. We are that which inhabits form. We come out of pre-form, exist inside of form, go back to pre-form. You cannot morn that which is the gift, it never belonged to us, so we have no rights of calling it OURS, MINE, when it moves onto a new stage, it is not something of OURS that is taken away. The gift is becoming something else, and we are still US. We are the energy that fills the seed. Stage 1. Seed grows into tree. Stage 2. Tree flourishes and sends out seeds. Stage 3. Tree ends growth cycle and begins decay/replenishment cycle. Stage 4. You are observing Stage 4. At stage 4 we, the energy, withdrawal from the tree and go back, having experience form.

Where people get in trouble is that they believe they are the form. They get stuck putting their focus on the gift and then curse when the gift leaves and when the gift moves through it's stages. This causes them insanity and great sorrow.

Me: Well... do you not leave at stage 4.. do you linger next to your form??? Since you are talking and all?

Tree: 'quiet'

Me: Hey wait! There's still some green branches.. You are still alive!

Tree: *chuckles*

:)

B"H

Bodily Assumptions
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Why do we assume that the body is any further from G-d than the soul?

Does G-d then lie in some spiritual space outside the corporeal world?

G-d is everywhere.





A Daily Dose of Wisdom from the Rebbe
-words and condensation by Tzvi Freeman
22 Sivan, 5764 * June 11, 2004

Dr. Wayne Dyer is so right on. I had taped this 4 hour PBS show he did and took it took Wisconsin. Played it twice while keeping watch with mom, giving her power words and thoughts for the audio background. *sigh* missing her...

(So, I've got The Power of Intention playing on my desktop, via satellite receiver and ATI TV tuner, while I'm reinstalling the OS on clients computer.)

Dr. Dyer is saying, "find beauty in everything. Can you find beauty in a homeless man peeing on against a wall? Can you find beauty in a cockroach?"

Ahh.. Dyer??? Yeah. I see beauty in everything. The closer you get to existing in consciousness to the event horizon of existence, the more incredibly beautiful everything is.

Back to Dyer. "The higher you get in consciousness, the more you see beauty everywhere."

Ahh.. Dyer? Right!

Hey, hang on! Wow, he's saying Beauty is Truth, Truth is Beauty. The Navajo saying is 'Walk in Beauty'.

Hm.. Beauty is Truth, Truth is Beauty. Wow, that's handy.

Yesterday at Snowbowl, suspended in the air for 25 minutes while Skyride chair lifts had an electrical outage, looking at the boulders and moss had this message given to me. Everything is one, unified one, coming into form and out. The amazing thing is that matter exists. It is held together by the creative intelligence. That intelligence set up the rock's script. The components of the rock and it's rules of behavior. It looks like some solid old rock. It's actually whirling energy constantly forming and reforming. Everything is subject to creative intelligence. This is the level of awareness that the ascended masters created from. This is an awareness I will become aware of. It's already written. My condition is the same as the rocks. I'm created from the creative intelligence. That's why human form can be reformed so easily by healers.

Oh ya, dreams are back to normal.

Ok, this morning's dreams, the ones I am aware of, again, they are of seeing/experiencing things and being divinely led, divinely guided.

Week before last, awoke to Vertigo. Snapped on a neck collar, drove on down to Cottonwood. Dr. Lipari fixed it. Couldn't keep my focus on an object for longer than 5 seconds, but the spinning was totally gone.

(As a note in the always taken care of by the Divine category, I was nearly out of money and when I called Lipari he said he'd see me for free, from having stood me up on a previous appointment.)

Anyway, I've got energy all over the place. Feels a bit like having fish swimming up my spine. Energy seems to build where ever I have my focus. My neck and my face, especially my checks where I'm smiling all the time seem to be swelling with energy. Tonight I've started focusing on my root chakra and my feet. Focusing on my feet seems to balance the energy and relieve the pressure in my head/neck/face.

I need to get grounded.

I feel hot, cold, slightly dizzy, kind of faint.

With mom, of blessed memory, passing, I've been resorting goals. Decided on ascending. I implored the Divine to aid in this during Shavous, completing the liberation started at Passover and worked upon with the Omer.

Big big big energy shifting. My morning dream was me learning something from the Divine. That's new. First time I've awoken to observing myself getting Divine instruction. Usually I get direction when I'm awake. First time I've been aware of it while I'm sleeping.

Also, refining my kosherist. Normally to ground I'd have some beef. Now the only beef I have is Hebrew National hotdogs and sausages. I can definatly feel my inner chield freak that I might let her get ill.

Could drive to Phoenix to kosher market. Advantages to connecting to the orthodox community there. However, think I'll order over the internet for now.

Feeling really really 'light headed'.

Note on constants.

I'm always rippling with ecstasy and bliss. Even while driving down to Lipari's with vertigo, everything was so beautiful, and I so grateful, so happy.

New theory on Fear G-d. One based on personal experience. It's the small being aware of the large. Like a component of existence, when the Creator is near the Created the presence of the Creator is the only thing with meaning.

It's huge. Nothing else matters.

The Created shivers and quakes in the presence of the Creator.

As Shavous neared, it was like standing in a field, watching the mother ship of all mother ships arriving, meanwhile someone is chatting about why they are pissed at their boyfriend. Their chatter is meaningless, pointless, insignificant. Seriously, who cares why they are pissed at their boyfriend, "Hey, check it out, there is a huge mother ship coming over us!"
The thing is, it isn't a head thing, it's a physical experience.

It's a working law of existence, like gravity.

I think that's why it is call fear. Because there is trembling, respect, and while it is happening, it is the only thing that matters.