Friday, July 30, 2004
Mr. Subtle :)
After spending 5 hours in my office/apt he finally blurts out, "You have a lot of beautiful women in your office". Meaning the TV series and movie posters of action adventure heroines. Me, kind of brushing it off, "Well they should be, they are Hollywoods finest." Stride quickly past him and over to the deck to deftly slip Goldie back in the water. Sitting down at the desk in front of him, he continues. "Xena had quite a following." Me still wary, "Oh yah, web sites, chat rooms, it was huge". Him, closing in on his point, "My friend who I work with is a lesbian and they have a special interest in the show." Me, inwardly sighing... do I.. hmm.. he said his friend.. and I hadn't done my fast 'straight person coming' clearing away of things... hmm.. ok, me.. "If she's cute, give me her number." Him, rocks back in his chair, big smile, let's me know she has a partner.
Oh yah, he's going to do some contract sales for me.
ooooo ya!
Oh yah, he's going to do some contract sales for me.
ooooo ya!
Thursday, July 29, 2004
Russian Mafia
Telling the Qwest guy about the Russian Mafia story, he asks for more details, go over the entire store, he's like Wow, I'm seeing a Made for TV Story here. hmm... I really need to get with Marty. :)
Friday, July 23, 2004
Spring! :)
Little Bit
Kitten nirvana ;)
I'm so so so blissed. Keep finding myself perfectly still, feeling the bliss of the internal body sensations. It's like tickle, giggle, joyful bubbles of ecstasy. It's so incredibly good, that it's hard to break away to move. I'm so grateful, this is fully body over the top ecstasy. There's a party in my cellular structure. ;)
Little Bit
Got a little boy kitten yesterday as a companion for my 5 year old female cat Spring. Even though the felines are still in the hissing stage, there is so much love and joy present that I'm just swimming in it.
Got a Koi fish for my patio container pond today. That's something that I've wanted for years. Though I've had the pond for a few months now, I had been blocking myself on the Koi when I found that they keep growing regardless on their containment size. Since they live to be like 126 years old, I found it unreasonable to get a Koi without being able to provide for it's growth needs. However, when I took my fear and had confronted it with reality the fear went poof! (Told the fish guy my concern, he said if it got too big for me, they would take it back.)
Since mom's passing, it feels like she has added herself to my light team. Suddenly I'm increasing my personal hygiene, my clothing, my hair, my accessories, and I've moved into the world of doing.
Before mom passed I was into calculating, but not moving forward until certain presets were met. I picked out my home theater system and future mattress only to buy them 2 years after selecting them. I would also go to stores or the mall only to browse, seeing what was available, planning stuff, but not purchasing.
After mom's passing I'm into getting things accomplished. I've moved out of the planning into the plan executing stage. Mom was/is very much a doer. While she was on the earth, she got a ton of stuff done on a daily basis. An amazingly HUGE amount done each day. Compared to her I was a slug.
Now there's a HUGE shift in who I am.
Packing for my most recent trip back to Wisconsin, I got a little bit done each day instead of slamming it all down on the last day. It felt really accomplished. :)
Also I was considering getting some plants, came back from Wisconsin, found myself buying the plants, getting the soil, pots, and getting them potted that night. (Previously I had bought 6 packs of plants only to leave them for a couple of months in their 6 packs... Something about ganking on their roots felt icky.) This time while planting the plants, I was trying to keep neat with the soil and the thought appeared, 'Just get your hands in the dirt and play, that's half the fun!' Ah.. ok.. I did, and it was! :)
There's tons more on a daily basis that show me mom is helping me, supporting me.
Ok, time to put the finishing touches on getting ready for Shabbos.
Shabbat Shalom!
Ciao!
Peace out!
Love to all!
Little Bit
Got a little boy kitten yesterday as a companion for my 5 year old female cat Spring. Even though the felines are still in the hissing stage, there is so much love and joy present that I'm just swimming in it.
Got a Koi fish for my patio container pond today. That's something that I've wanted for years. Though I've had the pond for a few months now, I had been blocking myself on the Koi when I found that they keep growing regardless on their containment size. Since they live to be like 126 years old, I found it unreasonable to get a Koi without being able to provide for it's growth needs. However, when I took my fear and had confronted it with reality the fear went poof! (Told the fish guy my concern, he said if it got too big for me, they would take it back.)
Since mom's passing, it feels like she has added herself to my light team. Suddenly I'm increasing my personal hygiene, my clothing, my hair, my accessories, and I've moved into the world of doing.
Before mom passed I was into calculating, but not moving forward until certain presets were met. I picked out my home theater system and future mattress only to buy them 2 years after selecting them. I would also go to stores or the mall only to browse, seeing what was available, planning stuff, but not purchasing.
After mom's passing I'm into getting things accomplished. I've moved out of the planning into the plan executing stage. Mom was/is very much a doer. While she was on the earth, she got a ton of stuff done on a daily basis. An amazingly HUGE amount done each day. Compared to her I was a slug.
Now there's a HUGE shift in who I am.
Packing for my most recent trip back to Wisconsin, I got a little bit done each day instead of slamming it all down on the last day. It felt really accomplished. :)
Also I was considering getting some plants, came back from Wisconsin, found myself buying the plants, getting the soil, pots, and getting them potted that night. (Previously I had bought 6 packs of plants only to leave them for a couple of months in their 6 packs... Something about ganking on their roots felt icky.) This time while planting the plants, I was trying to keep neat with the soil and the thought appeared, 'Just get your hands in the dirt and play, that's half the fun!' Ah.. ok.. I did, and it was! :)
There's tons more on a daily basis that show me mom is helping me, supporting me.
Ok, time to put the finishing touches on getting ready for Shabbos.
Shabbat Shalom!
Ciao!
Peace out!
Love to all!
Monday, July 12, 2004
Wondering if I should get involved and then Wham!
B"H
Teaching Despite Himself
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He alone knows what he has done with life. In the privacy of his own home, he looks in the mirror and sees himself. And from head to toe, things are not good.
So he says, "I should teach others? I should provide guidance?!"
And we tell him, yes. Because that is your place upon this planet: We live in a time when all those who know alef must teach alef and those who know what comes after alef must teach that too.
And G-d Above who formed you and put you in the here and now knows who you are and what you can do.
A Daily Dose of Wisdom from the Rebbe
-words and condensation by Tzvi Freeman
23 Tammuz, 5764 * July 12, 2004
Teaching Despite Himself
------------------------
He alone knows what he has done with life. In the privacy of his own home, he looks in the mirror and sees himself. And from head to toe, things are not good.
So he says, "I should teach others? I should provide guidance?!"
And we tell him, yes. Because that is your place upon this planet: We live in a time when all those who know alef must teach alef and those who know what comes after alef must teach that too.
And G-d Above who formed you and put you in the here and now knows who you are and what you can do.
A Daily Dose of Wisdom from the Rebbe
-words and condensation by Tzvi Freeman
23 Tammuz, 5764 * July 12, 2004
Sunday, July 11, 2004
Listening = Moshiach
Ok, this is exactly correct. I've been hearing this for the last year. I've been hearing it both as Moshiach and as the 'Second Comming.' When Rene said 'You are the happiest person I've ever met, who are you?' I told her. I told her that anyone that tuned into what I was tuned into would also hear: "You are the Moshiach, you are the choosen one, you are the second comming." Because I believe it is not only me, it is the energy that is happening NOW at this time, in our day.
B"H
Listening
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Within each thing we behold, the moshiach dwells, like the embryo waiting to break out of its egg. In the rhythm of a dandelion shivering in the breeze, in the eyes of the children we raise, in the goals we make in life, in the machines we use and the art we create, in the air we breathe and the blood rushing through our veins.
When the world was made, the sages say, the moshiach was the wind hovering over all that would be.
Today, those who know to listen can hear his voice beckoning, "Do no let go of me after all these ages! For the fruit of your labor and the labor of your holy mothers and fathers is about to ripen."
The listening alone is enough to crack the shell of the egg.
A Daily Dose of Wisdom from the Rebbe
-words and condensation by Tzvi Freeman
20 Tammuz, 5764 * July 9, 2004
B"H
Listening
---------
Within each thing we behold, the moshiach dwells, like the embryo waiting to break out of its egg. In the rhythm of a dandelion shivering in the breeze, in the eyes of the children we raise, in the goals we make in life, in the machines we use and the art we create, in the air we breathe and the blood rushing through our veins.
When the world was made, the sages say, the moshiach was the wind hovering over all that would be.
Today, those who know to listen can hear his voice beckoning, "Do no let go of me after all these ages! For the fruit of your labor and the labor of your holy mothers and fathers is about to ripen."
The listening alone is enough to crack the shell of the egg.
A Daily Dose of Wisdom from the Rebbe
-words and condensation by Tzvi Freeman
20 Tammuz, 5764 * July 9, 2004
