Monday, August 30, 2004
Gratitude - Meaning of Existence
Thoughts from the garden.
Gan Eden; humans were created to exist in gratitude and blessing. Everything was provided for, we were there to go "oooooo ahhhhh wonderful", to enjoy and to lend our hands in the creation and maintenance of goodness.
Can you imagine? Our primary role is to be grateful and to bless. PERIOD.
No wonder gratitude is such an immediate key to our soul. Such an immediate key to happiness.
When mom crossed over after the man from the mortuary arrived and took her body away I went upstairs to my room desperate with grief. I laid crying on the bed. Reaching for my core truth, utilizing the tools needed to bring me from darkness to light I started shouting (in a quiet voice to not bring everyone upstairs), "I'm so grateful! I'm so grateful! I'm so grateful!"
Gratitude is the key to accessing the Light.
The new thought is that it is the key, because it brings us back into alignment with what we were created for, to be grateful and to bless.
Gan Eden; humans were created to exist in gratitude and blessing. Everything was provided for, we were there to go "oooooo ahhhhh wonderful", to enjoy and to lend our hands in the creation and maintenance of goodness.
Can you imagine? Our primary role is to be grateful and to bless. PERIOD.
No wonder gratitude is such an immediate key to our soul. Such an immediate key to happiness.
When mom crossed over after the man from the mortuary arrived and took her body away I went upstairs to my room desperate with grief. I laid crying on the bed. Reaching for my core truth, utilizing the tools needed to bring me from darkness to light I started shouting (in a quiet voice to not bring everyone upstairs), "I'm so grateful! I'm so grateful! I'm so grateful!"
Gratitude is the key to accessing the Light.
The new thought is that it is the key, because it brings us back into alignment with what we were created for, to be grateful and to bless.
Friday, August 20, 2004
Kid sanctuary???
Ok, so here where I live is a temple of the Divine, Gan Eden. So... does that make this a kid sanctuary? Is this my apartment, provided by the goddess, or is it more than that, am I living at the Goddesses temple?
Kids naturally flock around me. Finn got out the other day and hooked up with Cloe a 9 year old who's divine. Since then Cloe has been over every day... told her not on Shabbos that it's my day of rest... she thinks I'm in bed all day sleeping, hehe... anyway first the visits were for a half hour or so, now they are like 6-7 hours a day *sigh* and amazingly she arrived today with another kid friend of my, son of my best friend here, Ahmad.
Living as the goddess and being her steward I've found myself buying food stuff for kids, making a cupboard of kid foods, buying Cloe a watch, and today checking kid drinks for the healthiest choices.
Cloe and Ahmad are both love beings. It's a delight to hear them laughing and playing. Cloe agrees with me that this is heaven. She doesn't know why people choose negativity. Her mom watches 'As the World Turns'. Cloe said it's just filled with negativity and it doesn't "turn her world" that negativity "stops her world". Cloe's mom came out of a childhood of child abuse, supposedly her father would beat her until she hid under her bed scared for her life. The abuse programming has carried over and Cloe was chatting away that she her mom had recently grabbed her by the neck, pinned her against the wall and started hitting her in the head, then just crushed her against the wall so she couldn't breath. So far I've let Cloe know that 99% of human adults are against that behavior, that her mom is wrong. Also that I don't lock my house and if necessary she could always come over. Her grandmother told her that she would press charges against Cloe's mom if Cloe wanted it. Cloe thought that meant her mom would get locked away in jail and Cloe didn't want that. I let Cloe know that Family Services would only remove a child from a home if there was immediate danger to the child and that probably what would happen is that they would have family and personal therapy which would make her life better. It's just too freaking huge to tell a kid that if they basically want some help with an abusive situation that their family will be destroyed and that their mom will be jailed, makes me want to slap the Grandma.
Well.. I've been wanting to help the crop of love beings that are on the planet now. We know, see, and experience the world differently from the old school. We are the light that brings the rest into the light. I'd been making plans of step 1, step 2. Only know it seems, the kids are gathering here. ahh.. time to get my steps moving forward. :)
Kids naturally flock around me. Finn got out the other day and hooked up with Cloe a 9 year old who's divine. Since then Cloe has been over every day... told her not on Shabbos that it's my day of rest... she thinks I'm in bed all day sleeping, hehe... anyway first the visits were for a half hour or so, now they are like 6-7 hours a day *sigh* and amazingly she arrived today with another kid friend of my, son of my best friend here, Ahmad.
Living as the goddess and being her steward I've found myself buying food stuff for kids, making a cupboard of kid foods, buying Cloe a watch, and today checking kid drinks for the healthiest choices.
Cloe and Ahmad are both love beings. It's a delight to hear them laughing and playing. Cloe agrees with me that this is heaven. She doesn't know why people choose negativity. Her mom watches 'As the World Turns'. Cloe said it's just filled with negativity and it doesn't "turn her world" that negativity "stops her world". Cloe's mom came out of a childhood of child abuse, supposedly her father would beat her until she hid under her bed scared for her life. The abuse programming has carried over and Cloe was chatting away that she her mom had recently grabbed her by the neck, pinned her against the wall and started hitting her in the head, then just crushed her against the wall so she couldn't breath. So far I've let Cloe know that 99% of human adults are against that behavior, that her mom is wrong. Also that I don't lock my house and if necessary she could always come over. Her grandmother told her that she would press charges against Cloe's mom if Cloe wanted it. Cloe thought that meant her mom would get locked away in jail and Cloe didn't want that. I let Cloe know that Family Services would only remove a child from a home if there was immediate danger to the child and that probably what would happen is that they would have family and personal therapy which would make her life better. It's just too freaking huge to tell a kid that if they basically want some help with an abusive situation that their family will be destroyed and that their mom will be jailed, makes me want to slap the Grandma.
Well.. I've been wanting to help the crop of love beings that are on the planet now. We know, see, and experience the world differently from the old school. We are the light that brings the rest into the light. I'd been making plans of step 1, step 2. Only know it seems, the kids are gathering here. ahh.. time to get my steps moving forward. :)
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
Imaginary Kindness
B"H
Imaginary Kindness
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Most of the favors we do for others are things they do not need. They only imagine they need these things, since we live in a world propelled by fantasies.
But this does not matter. They are acts of kindness, nevertheless, and G-d desires to be found in acts of kindness. And where can kindness be performed? In a world of delusions, where people imagine all sorts of needs.
The highest, indeed, is found in the lowest, the deepest truths in the muddiest pit of confusion.
A Daily Dose of Wisdom from the Rebbe
-words and condensation by Tzvi Freeman
Menachem Av 30, 5764 * August 17, 2004
Imaginary Kindness
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Most of the favors we do for others are things they do not need. They only imagine they need these things, since we live in a world propelled by fantasies.
But this does not matter. They are acts of kindness, nevertheless, and G-d desires to be found in acts of kindness. And where can kindness be performed? In a world of delusions, where people imagine all sorts of needs.
The highest, indeed, is found in the lowest, the deepest truths in the muddiest pit of confusion.
A Daily Dose of Wisdom from the Rebbe
-words and condensation by Tzvi Freeman
Menachem Av 30, 5764 * August 17, 2004
Thursday, August 12, 2004
Ego - Gratitude
Ego strives for permanence. A permanent continuous sense of self and yet there is none on the ego level. Who I am tomorrow is not who I am today. The only permanence exist beyond ego, beyond the thinking mind. I tap into it in the listening, experiencing and acting mind. Perhaps we should be grateful for ego, for it's striving for a condition of permanence. For it's desire is like a pointer to what has greater permanent, what is beyond egos self, the Divine self.
hmmm....
The Divine is also impermanent, also different tomorrow from today, it's all dynamically updating, reconfiguring, ripples from an original thought.
Ok, so perhaps we are never part of what is permanent, in a sense of something that is in a fixed state. Perhaps we get pointed to our source, our true nature, eternal in the only concept of eternal that we have, yet perhaps it's only 'bigger'.
hmm... all righty then
hmmm....
The Divine is also impermanent, also different tomorrow from today, it's all dynamically updating, reconfiguring, ripples from an original thought.
Ok, so perhaps we are never part of what is permanent, in a sense of something that is in a fixed state. Perhaps we get pointed to our source, our true nature, eternal in the only concept of eternal that we have, yet perhaps it's only 'bigger'.
hmm... all righty then
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
Ripples and ripples of Bliss
Wow, just feel so good, ripples and ripples of bliss. Keep finding myself standing stock still as waves of bliss flow through my body.
Standing still, sitting still, tuned into the bliss.
It so so so good and getting better, hard to shake it off and move. Poised like a deer listening.
Made the change in consciousness to "Heaven UP!". (Said/used like the phrase 'Cowboy up'.)
Just accept that I'm in Heaven. No drama. There's no value to me being in ordinary consciousness, that brings nothing to the mix. The max value that I have is heaven consciousness. Chariot of Heaven. To anchor Heaven realization/consciousness.
Saturday, looking at the plants, found it was time to stop looking at them as a care taker and start looking at them in awe, in blissfully awareness. It's a shift from looking for the 'needs' to looking at the 'perfection'. Wow, those plants rock! Snapdragons are sooooo cool. So glad I got them.
Sunday, guided to start the day with the plants, could hear my guidance taking note to not work me to hard, as the previous Sunday I worked on tasks until I was ill from lack of food and took Monday to revive.
Saw a Rumni quote "Bet everything on love", and the catalog described it as romantic advice. Interesting. The torah said about the revelation of the Divine as "Each to their own understanding." First I scoffed the catalog guys with a hey, it's Rumni, it's about Divine ecstasy. Like, hey, you guys are wrong, then I had that flash of "Each to their own understanding." So that's their understanding and it's perfect as their understanding. My ego can be such a punk.
So, Sunday I'm planting, watering, tending the plants and fish. Time... well time is vaporware. *grin* Anyway, time had gone full throttle. I get in the car to go up to Snowbowl even though it looked like I would get there too late. Get behind a truck doing 45 in a 55 strip, hmm.... Ok, this is heaven, it's perfect. Same truck pulls off on the road up the mountain to Snowbowl, pass him like a bat out of hell. (I have the land speed record driving Oak Creek Canyon... kids.. do not do this at home.) Anyway, zoom up the hill way fast and way fun 'goddess is driving' speeds. Hit the parking lot, got 1 minute to get a ticket (complementary 'cause of my season ski pass), and hit the lift. hmm.. in normal human ego consciousness I'm too late, game over. I do thought, hmm 1 minute hmm... , thought blast back, even though technically it's too late, we still have the human kindness factor. Run in, they punch a ticket, run to lift gal lets me jump the barricade and grab a lift chair. Nice. Here's the thing, I knew while racing up, that I'd get on the lift. Thought came in, it's heaven, since it's heaven, I'll probably get on the lift. Said thank you goddess, grinned more and did another fast switch back. hehe
Saw a brown bear on the lift ride, she came out of the tree line onto the ski run break just on the edge of a rock scree. Normally I sit across the chair, with my back to the oncoming chairs to avoid saying hi to every group coming down. This time I let everyone coming by me know to look for the bear. It was fun. They were loving it. Told the park ranger about the bear while he passed me on his way down. He radioed back up his thanks said it was a 'huge' brown bear, that they are rare and I was lucky to have spotted it.
hmm....... lucky? hehe
There's a commentary on Exodus that I keep reflecting on regarding the miracles/plagues in Egypt. 'Only those who expected to see miracles saw miracles, the rest only saw disasters.'
I've also been flashing on the image that guy from Vegas hit me with, of my body as a light body. Startled I said back to him, "it's all light!" Laughing he said back, 'yes that is all there is'. So, I've been adventuring with my consciousness in the light being plane.
It's like, what if a person suddenly experience everything at the quark level. We know about the quark level, yet with our eyes we see this hugely dense level... and yet we know we are mostly space. What if we were looking at things from the mostly space view. So, I've seen/experienced the white/red light level, now I'm just bleeding that experience into my density experience.
Yo, time to do a peek opportunity outside thing.
Love
Standing still, sitting still, tuned into the bliss.
It so so so good and getting better, hard to shake it off and move. Poised like a deer listening.
Made the change in consciousness to "Heaven UP!". (Said/used like the phrase 'Cowboy up'.)
Just accept that I'm in Heaven. No drama. There's no value to me being in ordinary consciousness, that brings nothing to the mix. The max value that I have is heaven consciousness. Chariot of Heaven. To anchor Heaven realization/consciousness.
Saturday, looking at the plants, found it was time to stop looking at them as a care taker and start looking at them in awe, in blissfully awareness. It's a shift from looking for the 'needs' to looking at the 'perfection'. Wow, those plants rock! Snapdragons are sooooo cool. So glad I got them.
Sunday, guided to start the day with the plants, could hear my guidance taking note to not work me to hard, as the previous Sunday I worked on tasks until I was ill from lack of food and took Monday to revive.
Saw a Rumni quote "Bet everything on love", and the catalog described it as romantic advice. Interesting. The torah said about the revelation of the Divine as "Each to their own understanding." First I scoffed the catalog guys with a hey, it's Rumni, it's about Divine ecstasy. Like, hey, you guys are wrong, then I had that flash of "Each to their own understanding." So that's their understanding and it's perfect as their understanding. My ego can be such a punk.
So, Sunday I'm planting, watering, tending the plants and fish. Time... well time is vaporware. *grin* Anyway, time had gone full throttle. I get in the car to go up to Snowbowl even though it looked like I would get there too late. Get behind a truck doing 45 in a 55 strip, hmm.... Ok, this is heaven, it's perfect. Same truck pulls off on the road up the mountain to Snowbowl, pass him like a bat out of hell. (I have the land speed record driving Oak Creek Canyon... kids.. do not do this at home.) Anyway, zoom up the hill way fast and way fun 'goddess is driving' speeds. Hit the parking lot, got 1 minute to get a ticket (complementary 'cause of my season ski pass), and hit the lift. hmm.. in normal human ego consciousness I'm too late, game over. I do thought, hmm 1 minute hmm... , thought blast back, even though technically it's too late, we still have the human kindness factor. Run in, they punch a ticket, run to lift gal lets me jump the barricade and grab a lift chair. Nice. Here's the thing, I knew while racing up, that I'd get on the lift. Thought came in, it's heaven, since it's heaven, I'll probably get on the lift. Said thank you goddess, grinned more and did another fast switch back. hehe
Saw a brown bear on the lift ride, she came out of the tree line onto the ski run break just on the edge of a rock scree. Normally I sit across the chair, with my back to the oncoming chairs to avoid saying hi to every group coming down. This time I let everyone coming by me know to look for the bear. It was fun. They were loving it. Told the park ranger about the bear while he passed me on his way down. He radioed back up his thanks said it was a 'huge' brown bear, that they are rare and I was lucky to have spotted it.
hmm....... lucky? hehe
There's a commentary on Exodus that I keep reflecting on regarding the miracles/plagues in Egypt. 'Only those who expected to see miracles saw miracles, the rest only saw disasters.'
I've also been flashing on the image that guy from Vegas hit me with, of my body as a light body. Startled I said back to him, "it's all light!" Laughing he said back, 'yes that is all there is'. So, I've been adventuring with my consciousness in the light being plane.
It's like, what if a person suddenly experience everything at the quark level. We know about the quark level, yet with our eyes we see this hugely dense level... and yet we know we are mostly space. What if we were looking at things from the mostly space view. So, I've seen/experienced the white/red light level, now I'm just bleeding that experience into my density experience.
Yo, time to do a peek opportunity outside thing.
Love
Thursday, August 05, 2004
You are the nicest person I know.
Cloe, "You are the nicest person I know".
Me, glancing back over my shoulder while working on the clients laptop seeing Cloe, the cute little 9 year old who found Finskie yesterday. "Me or the kittie?" *smile*
Cloe, "You... and the kitten."
aahhhhh warm glowing kitten and kiddy bliss
Cloe came over at 1 pm, stayed till mom came to get her at 7 pm. hehe... I've got to get more snackage.
I'm an animal magnet, a little kid magnet. sigh I love them!
Me, glancing back over my shoulder while working on the clients laptop seeing Cloe, the cute little 9 year old who found Finskie yesterday. "Me or the kittie?" *smile*
Cloe, "You... and the kitten."
aahhhhh warm glowing kitten and kiddy bliss
Cloe came over at 1 pm, stayed till mom came to get her at 7 pm. hehe... I've got to get more snackage.
I'm an animal magnet, a little kid magnet. sigh I love them!
Luck
"Luck is the residual of design."
nice, like it, got to get the name of the person who said that.
nice, like it, got to get the name of the person who said that.
