Mystic musings

New mantra, it doesn't have to be perfect, just better.

I realize my bend towards perfectionism can really be a block to doing. I can feel the cringe when faced with something I don't know, or something I'm thinking I'm not going to be good at. I'm predisposed to resisting doing anything I'm not going to excel at. I use to think that was logical, now I see it as a block. So... the thought in my head that keeps coming through is 'it doesn't have to be perfect, just better.'

Is Judaism a Theocracy? | Chabad.org > Magazine >: "At a farbrengen (Chassidic gathering) with his Chassidim on Purim of 1963, the Rebbe said:
Our generation has been granted opportunities that have never been granted before. There has come about a tremendous awakening for what is being called 'a return to the source.' That name, however, implies that one must journey a great and long distance to reach this source, when in truth every individual, whether righteous or iniquitous, possesses a soul that is a 'part of G-d above.' So he need not journey anywhere to reach the source, which resides in his own mind and heart; he need only remove the covering that conceals it. But since he does not know the means by which to remove the covering, he goes around proclaiming his hunger and thirst."

Going up the ladder, I'm seeing the good in every thing. The higher I go, the more of the tapestry of the universe is revealed to me. Things that just 9 months ago that I was angry with, feuding with, I'm now embracing. Gauze is lifted from my eyes and I see the beauty of how things fit in the eternal picture.

Last Passover a woman asked me the meaning of the holocaust. It's something I hadn't dwelled on for higher meaning and since I didn't have a divine answer I said I really didn't know. I dislike trite pacifying answers. The only thoughts that I had were thoughts in my mind, thoughts that came from reading, listening, meeting elderly Jews back in LA with tattoos on their arms who were quiet and their children felt the haunting of the Nazis in their parents quiet.

Now the thoughts are pouring in my head, revealing themselves to me.

Look at events from the perspective of what follows them. From a design that is longer than a lifetime and continues after the death of those involved.

Before what I was looking at and what those around me were questioning was 'why did it happen?' 'how did G-d let it happen?' 'were people being punished?'

The gal that asked me at Passover, I think she asked something like, "Why weren't the people saved through the intervention of the prayers of the holy people of their time?" And also, "Why didn't the wise people/sages/those connected with G-d warn the people to leave?"

At the time I was only looking at that generation. The generation that was living a freer life, the ghettos had been open, reform Judaism started which was a way from the Jews to worship more like their Christian neighbors.

Only it's not about just that generation, it's about a thread of souls, and managing the development of the world.

We returned to Israel, we were forced to, there was no where else to go. The gathering began. Jewish identity was getting spread out and weakened. Through the sacrifice of a generation, Jewish identity was again strengthen.

Heaven is here, right now. Watching it being revealed.

Is Judaism a Theocracy? | Chabad.org > Magazine >: "There is a Kabbalistic rule: the higher a thing is, the lower it falls. Precisely because it is an expression of the very essence of the souls synonymy with the Divine, the drive for freedom is susceptible to the most devastating of corruptions."

Is Judaism a Theocracy? | Chabad.org > Magazine >: "The Holy Side of Tyranny
This dilemma is very beautifully illustrated by an anecdote told of the mashpia (Chassidic teacher and mentor) Rabbi Dovid Kieveman, also known as 'Reb Dovid Horodoker'. It is said that Reb Dovid wept when Czar Nicholas II was overthrown in the Russian Revolution of 1917. 'Why do you shed tears over the fall of a tyrant?' he was asked. 'I weep,' replied the Chassid, 'because a mashal (metaphor) in Chassidic teaching is gone.'
(The metaphor, or mashal, is an elementary tool of Chassidic teaching. The premise is that to truly understand something, one must experience it, or something like it, oneself. This is even more so the case true when one seeks to understand spiritual realities: to make palpable the ethereal to the human mind, one must first find the corresponding model in human experience. Chassidic teaching thus makes extensive use of metaphors in its endeavor to explain the nature of G-ds relationship with the created reality and the essence and purpose of creation.)
We have already mentioned the extensive use of the metaphor of 'kingship' in the Talmud and Midrash; this is further expanded on in Chassidic teaching. The Chassidic masters point out that the while the Torah employs a variety of models in speaking of our relationship with G-d--that of a child to his father, a beloved to her lover, a disciple to his master, a flock to its shepherd, among others--and that while these models each express another facet of the bond between man and G-d, there is a dimension to the relationship that can only be expressed by the model of a subjects relationship to his king.
So when the Czar was overthrown, a teacher of Chassidism wept. To live as a subject of the Czar was, in many ways, a great hindrance to living as a Jew. But Reb Dovid was thinking of the deeper, more basic implications of authoritarianism: not of the blatant ways that a tyrant's authority intruded upon one's life, but in the particular mindset and psychological make-up it cultivated in a person. How, agonized this mashpia, will a kingless generation possibly understand the utter surrender of self that the king-subject relationship epitomized? How will they comprehend the awe accorded one whose rule is absolute and incontestable? What model would they have for a "king"--a figure who transcends the personal to embody the soul of a nation? Never mind that most kings of history were unworthy metaphors of the Divine sovereignty; central to our relationship with G-d is something that only one who has been subject to a king can truly appreciate.
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Job title: Chariot of Heaven

Job description: Gain and maintain higher and higher levels of bliss and ecstasy. Practice gratitude, joy, spontaneity, blessing, and dance. Develop listening to and following personal divine guidance. Reveal the heaven dimension. Feel the love wave, surf the love wave, be the love wave.

That's my job description.

When I'm blissing out, in ecstasy, I'm at work. :)

When I'm grateful, saying thank you thank you, thank you, over and over, saying I love you, I love you, I love you, over and over, saying Goddess you are so cool, over and over, that's me at work.

It's what I do, it's who I am.

Form is the Source manifested as form. The world of form is all one, it's all the Source manifesting, its all connected, it's all one pulsating fabric. Me being in bliss creates a pattern in the fabric of all of us for bliss. You being in bliss strengthen the pattern of bliss for all to follow. YOU can save the world, end pain and suffering, by being your true self, by blissing out!

There is only the Divine. This is my gift to the Divine. To be AWAKE. To say thank you. To live a life in full realization that it is all the Divine. To be the Divine in form having an experience of the perfection that the Divine is. To be the Divine in Form living in Heaven.

If you like the job description, then take it. It's YOURS!

Hearing people say 'I'm bored.'

I hear that and my head snaps around to take a look at them... well discretely of course ;) .

When I hear that from people it's like.. wow. Dude! There is a party going on it your atomic matrix! Check in! Get aware, pay attention, really really look at something. How the freak can you be bored!

The answer to that is, they are stuck in ego. Ego is driving and it's saying.. hmm.. not enough entertainment.

I have 2 quick personal things I do for boredom.
1) Go faster. Seems like whatever I'm doing, if I go faster, it gets more interesting. hehe
2) Pay more attention. Getting aware brings on waves and waves pleasure.

Bobby, cool gal from Alaska, started chatting with me after everyone left. (I'm working on their office computer.)
Bobby: "You are always smiling."
Me: "Yep"
Ok so we're talking about the nature of existence. I confide that I exist in bliss. That I tone it down around people and that by the time I got in my car I'd be in ecstasy.
Bobby: "A year ago I would have been afraid of you."
Me: "huh?"
Bobby: "Too much light, too much truth."
Me: "So what's different now?"
Bobby: "I'm in a better place, I'm ready to feel good."
Me: "Kewl." (Thinking... afraid of someone who is fun, smiley, gentle, and funny? yikes! huh.. that's profound people afraid of truth.)
Bobby: "Isn't it frustrating for you to be in such a high place and being surrounded by people that can't relate?"
Me: "No. I don't need people to understand. I'm in BLISS. It's not based on some set of conditions, it IS, it's Unconditional Bliss. I'm not suffering. I'm not doing 'frustration'."

There was a time when I wanted to get through to people, to say 'wake up come on, there's a bliss bash going on and you're ignoring it!' Like going to an event in Sedona, all these people gathered saying they want what I have, listening to speakers saying they have a plan on how to obtain what I have... and there I am, sitting right there with them... having it and they can't even see.

I'm so aware that everything is happening on two stages, in two arenas.

The actions here in form and the intentions/actions here in Light.

I watch people, hear what they say, what they do, how they focus their lives. I watch myself, how I react to situations, to people, the intensity I bring to a situation. Then I pull back and watch it from a Higher Arena. Watching what is happening on the Higher Planes. Of the 100% people may put into a situation, only 1-10% of it has any significance/interest on a higher level.

I'm always watching myself. Loudly or quietly. I evaluate what significance my actions take on an Eternal plane. When I determine my consciousness or action is more of a temporal/form nature then Eternal nature I'll regroup/redirect and refocus on doing whatever I'm doing from a greater significance for the Eternal arena.