Wednesday, May 25, 2005
Kabalah - Red Thread
So Saturday I took off the Red Thread from Rachel's Tomb my wrist. I had it tied on with a square knot. I put it on just before Passover and since then I've had this feeling of wanting to tear it off with my teeth. I'd wake up wanting to gnaw it off like an animal caught in a trap.
Saturday while in the bathtub the red string was finally loose enough to slide it over my hand and slip it off. Wow. I instantly felt better. My heart felt light and I was bubbly all over with Joy.
Curious I started holding it in my left hand and seeing what happened. It was like some kind of liquid of sadness, heaviness, was flowing down my wrist and making something like a liquid plastic barrier over my heart. Ok.. remove it again. Voila!, back to light and happy. Hold it in my right hand. Again, like this opaque liquid density flowing down my arm and covering my heart. Again I felt somber. Removed the red string. Voila! Back to Lightness and Joy. Now it's off and in the kitchen cupboard. I'm thinking of burning it. I have one more red string in it's box in my bedroom... hmm... wonder if I need to move it or if it's neutral while in the box?
Saturday while in the bathtub the red string was finally loose enough to slide it over my hand and slip it off. Wow. I instantly felt better. My heart felt light and I was bubbly all over with Joy.
Curious I started holding it in my left hand and seeing what happened. It was like some kind of liquid of sadness, heaviness, was flowing down my wrist and making something like a liquid plastic barrier over my heart. Ok.. remove it again. Voila!, back to light and happy. Hold it in my right hand. Again, like this opaque liquid density flowing down my arm and covering my heart. Again I felt somber. Removed the red string. Voila! Back to Lightness and Joy. Now it's off and in the kitchen cupboard. I'm thinking of burning it. I have one more red string in it's box in my bedroom... hmm... wonder if I need to move it or if it's neutral while in the box?
