Monday, June 27, 2005
What the rock said
While my mother was alive in form, I was never alone. Mom would lend me 1K at a time when I had financial lows and I had a sense of safety knowing she was always there for me. After mom crossed over last year I just floundered, lost my purpose in life, lost my sense of self, lost the meaning of why be alive anyway in all this darkness, lost that sense of being loved, being connected to another person, being safe, being cared for.
So here I am, one year three months later, body in pain, financially bottoming out. (As a backdrop, my body almost never has pain and when I am working and billing my monthly overhead is paid in four days.)
So I'm asking the rock, how can I possibly have pain from guru 'M' connected in my form when all of that has been cleared. The rocks said, the body was cleared of connections to 'M' however, the mind was holding a 'thought program' one of 'you are unable to survive on your own'. Having taken the belief that once your mother crossed over you were alone, you initiated the program that you could not survive, which once activated freaked the body into protesting with pain and tightness. The rock and I reviewed 'M' who she really was, what she really was, and the two activating programs that I was dealing with that she implanted. While experiencing being back in time, back when 'M' delivered the program statements I asked Archangel Michael to bring an angel there to stop the program from being accepted. I saw Archangel Michael himself step in front of my being, back in time, and ward her off, commanding her to not approach me. Thanks.
Suddenly I felt like I woke up. I was back to being me. I sang some medicine songs to the area, it was like I forgot that I was a pipe carrying medicine woman among other things. It amazes me, it was like I was pretending to be so so so little, when I am so much more.
