Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Cloak of Invisibility
I had a really blissed out time doing the entire road trip down to Sedona thing. Here's the thing, it's like I'm constantly new. I have continuity in only the lightest sense. Everything becomes more beautiful, more exciting, more thrilling, more amped, more Awesome. Oak Creek Canyon was to part of me familiar and to most of me over the top gorgeous.
I get to the event after it has started... which I prefer. All the people are sitting down and out of the way. I find myself in the front at the side in an alcove, sitting on the floor, perfectly comfortable, great view, and right behind Amma's production staff.
Amma is giving a discourse and takes breaks for songs of gratitude, songs of peace, and songs asking the Divine for help to be ones True Self.
Closing my eyes I see these dancing dakini and I dance along with them nodding and turning my head. To give myself space I throw up a cloak of invisibility. That way I can be me without being noticed.
After a while I look around at the crowd, clean, pretty, nicely dressed and I wonder.. Wow.. I'm right here and I bet they don't even know it, then the thought flies in, "Well, you did throw up a cloak of invisibility. Which is it, be noticed or be invisible?"
I've rather been enjoying invisible.
I learned how to do invisible years and years ago from my teacher M.
For the last six years I have been smiling so brightly constantly that I pretty much always stay cloaked so that I can be myself, smiling brightly without attracting attention.
So.. Amma comes to this song invoking help for all to be in the Truth. Getting ready to listen I suddenly got this wake up call, she was calling for help for the Divine. hmm.. OK, I'll be me. I am Love in Form. I am the daughter of the Divine. I am a fountain of divine love. The love is constantly flowing, inexhaustible and it is my job to be conscious of it and have it flow into the world. That's my job. I am love. I look human, and I have the human condition to deal with, but I am not human. I am LOVE, LOVE in form. During Amma's pray, my body became still and upright. I became quiet and the fountain opened filling the space with divine love.
Once again, I didn't notice anyone noticing me, but then.. how very little people do notice.
I get to the event after it has started... which I prefer. All the people are sitting down and out of the way. I find myself in the front at the side in an alcove, sitting on the floor, perfectly comfortable, great view, and right behind Amma's production staff.
Amma is giving a discourse and takes breaks for songs of gratitude, songs of peace, and songs asking the Divine for help to be ones True Self.
Closing my eyes I see these dancing dakini and I dance along with them nodding and turning my head. To give myself space I throw up a cloak of invisibility. That way I can be me without being noticed.
After a while I look around at the crowd, clean, pretty, nicely dressed and I wonder.. Wow.. I'm right here and I bet they don't even know it, then the thought flies in, "Well, you did throw up a cloak of invisibility. Which is it, be noticed or be invisible?"
I've rather been enjoying invisible.
I learned how to do invisible years and years ago from my teacher M.
For the last six years I have been smiling so brightly constantly that I pretty much always stay cloaked so that I can be myself, smiling brightly without attracting attention.
So.. Amma comes to this song invoking help for all to be in the Truth. Getting ready to listen I suddenly got this wake up call, she was calling for help for the Divine. hmm.. OK, I'll be me. I am Love in Form. I am the daughter of the Divine. I am a fountain of divine love. The love is constantly flowing, inexhaustible and it is my job to be conscious of it and have it flow into the world. That's my job. I am love. I look human, and I have the human condition to deal with, but I am not human. I am LOVE, LOVE in form. During Amma's pray, my body became still and upright. I became quiet and the fountain opened filling the space with divine love.
Once again, I didn't notice anyone noticing me, but then.. how very little people do notice.
