Mystic musings

My DHEA is so low, it's below the measurement values on the blood workup. Blood came back as less than 20.

I conserve energy. I feel drained when I look at a goal completion, then energy use of the project piles right up on the present state and my current energy goes whoosh.... gone, drained, strained and feeling sleepy.

Noticed yesterday after being at clients helping them out that I feel more energy.

I bring them the upper energy, pink, blue, violet, halogen light kind and they give me the red energy.

Wow. I energize around people.

Back in the temple. Not judging, learning. So forget the whole... yikes, what's up with that thing, just schedule more people time and see how that goes.

B"H
Galut
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It is not so much that we need to be taken out of exile. It is that the exile must be taken out of us.




A Daily Dose of Wisdom from the Rebbe
-words and condensation by Tzvi Freeman
Shevat 11, 5767 * January 30, 2007

OK so our JOB is to maintain Heaven standards. We Exist in Heaven. Now we are being sent into the outer world. This wasn't from us this was from MOM. The car, the drum corps, the contract price proposed change in July. All opening the door and MOM sending me into the world. For the last few years I have been cradled up with my kitties blissed out in our flowers, our Tivo and Direct TV, travel, working few hours on brokering internationally - bliss - waking up when we would like (2 PM) sleeping when we would like (5-6 AM). Watching sunrise and sunset.

OK, so MOM opens the door and says 'Go outside and Create with ME'. 'It's Heaven everywhere you are.'

Heaven
Inside brilliant bliss/lite
Ask G-d to make it happen All the Time
Ask each time found myself coming back after having been absent
G-d did it. Is keeping me here non stop now.
Blissed out apartment, kitties, ponds, plants, food.
Created Heaven environment Inside Home
Anchoring Heaven On Earth Inside Home

Now sent outside
Maintaining Heaven Standards is the JOB.
Now Heaven Anchors walking and Creating in the Earth with I AM.


LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT

THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!

OK, here's the thing. I really have to get this stuff down fast. I'm morphing and all of the time line behind me is becoming unzipped.

As I move into being my divine consciousness the emotional ties to past events and the experiential ties are unlaced. It's like a film strip separating. My consciousness has moved from watching the movie on the lower level to living in the upper level. What I'm finding is that as the consciousness moves the nature of it seems to exist in one dimension only. Not straddling both. So instead of having a consciousness wow, I wished I typed faster and thought just bolted by. hehe

AJ and I are from the same group.

M told me her and I were the ONLY ones from our group. She followed up with telling me I would be lonely in life because she was the only other person on our planet that was from our planet.

M's concept was that she was the ONLY one on the planet. That lead to her fall. Her ego lifted up and made her small.

My concept is that I AM one of MANY. So my energy goes out and ego gets a lesson in True Reality.

Held Shabbos through Sunday morning. Really wanted to sleep a second night in Shabbos. Last Shabbos I was engaged in Drum Corp, driving over, missing candle lighting time, was thinking of it at the rest area before Barstow, CA, then remembered how unsatisfying it was driving through Wyoming with my father blowing out my candles while we drove... that was how I lite on time. So hit Anaheim, did rehearsal, checked into the motel (really nice room, thanks!) did candle lighting and Shabbos dinner. Oh ya, we marched and played at NAMM. Ya! Week before flew to Milwaukee for Uncle Gene's funeral and even through I arrived at 3 PM my brother couldn't get me until 7 PM. I had the opportunity to light candles, I was in my cousins room, but didn't. Wanted to wait until I was tucked away at my brothers instead of discussing the entire thing with my cousin. Had pulled an all niter and was exhausted, just didn't have the energy to deal. So! This was my first full on Shabbos again after 2 weeks of traveling on Shabbos. So! I held Shabbos over until today. However I did want to ski. Woke up around noon, did Havdalah, did some client work and got my ski stuff together. Whole thing was entirely mellow. I was content even if I didn't get up in there in time to ski. Just getting it all together. However I did get up there in time for the last run. Went past the blue diamond drop off up to the top to start my first run via black diamond run. So so so so so so so so FUN! Kept the head phones off, listening to the sounds of the mountain. Hearing people yell with joy, so cool. Helped a little boy and his mom navigate to the blue and kept an eye on them until past logjam when after speaking with ski patrol I was certain they were watching for them. Met great gal Shane, she had skins on her telemark skis and was hiking up. She knew the chemical name for those ATP things Janet told me about. So, met people, helped people, said hi to the mountain, let it know how beautiful and loved it is, said thank yous to MOM, the whole world is filled with her glory. Skied slick. Guidance in my head said I would not fall, get in the front seat, carve through the toes, "You're an eagle soaring". So fun.

Note to self start a Looking into the Light blog and attach to site.

Now time for mellophone practice. Building chops is a daily activity. Then scoop the kitties inside, make turkey chili and celebrate more Malava malka.

Time only means something when there is action invested. So even though x point is happening in the future. The comfort of there being a lot of time before the event only exist because of the amount of action that can be invested in time before x point.

So it's not 'investing time' into something. It's 'investing action' into time.

B"H
Just the Two of You
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Worry is self-humiliation. Trust is dignity.
To worry is to worship the world. To fall on your knees in dread and grovel before it.
To trust in G-d is to lift up your eyes and stand as tall as the heavens. To believe there is nothing else but the love between G-d above and you below.




A Daily Dose of Wisdom from the Rebbe
-words and condensation by Tzvi Freeman
Tevet 19, 5767 * January 9, 2007

Moses Vs. Gandhi

Could Violence Be Moral?

By Dov Greenberg


Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi (October 2, 1869 – January 30, 1948)
From www.pc.no

As terror continues to threaten our brothers and sisters in Israel, let us turn to the greatest leader of the Jewish people, Moses, for a genuine road map toward peace and liberation.


Moses' profile


The Hebrew Bible shares only three incidents about Moses' life prior to G-d choosing him as a leader and prophet (Exodus Chapter 2):

1) As a young man, Moses goes out among his brethren and sees an Egyptian overseer brutally beating a Hebrew. He strikes down the oppressor, burying him in the sand.

2) The next day, Moses attempts to bring peace between two Hebrews who are fighting, but the aggressor is indignant and says, "Who appointed you as a prince and leader over us? Do you mean to kill me as you killed the Egyptian?" Realizing that his intervention the previous day had already become known, Moses escapes from Egypt and finds refuge in Midian.

3) In Midian, Moses probably wants nothing more than peace and tranquility. Instead, he finds himself embroiled in yet another conflict. He witnesses the local shepherds bullying a group of girls who were first in line to draw water from a well. He immediately rises to their defense, driving off the offending shepherds.

These are the only episodes we know about Moses (besides the circumstances of his birth) prior to his selection by G-d as a leader, because they express a paradigm indispensable to leadership: A leader must have the courage to battle injustice wherever it exists. In all three instances, Moses is deeply committed to fighting injustice. He intervenes when a non-Jew oppresses a Jew, when two Jews fight, and when non-Jewish men oppress non-Jewish women. When it is necessary to kill, he is willing to kill. When it is sufficient to talk he is ready to talk; when it is necessary to fight, he is prepared to fight. One who rejects the choice of aggression out of a sense of compassion may be a kind human being but a wholly inadequate leader, because the long-term results of a failure to battle evil are far worse.


Politically Incorrect


In modern terms, Moses is politically incorrect. He does not lecture the Egyptian taskmaster about "the cycle of violence" or give him a lesson on "rage management." Moses knows that by the time he will complete his lecture the Hebrew might be dead. Moses is aware that at times, violence is a moral, though difficult, choice. It saves the lives of the innocent.

Prohibiting moral killing, guarantees immoral killing. It is violence used by police that stops violent criminals from murdering and hurting innocent people. There are many innocent men and women alive today solely because someone used violence to save their lives. If someone had killed the hijackers of 9/11 before they commandeered the planes, thousands of lives would have been saved.


Gandhi's Advice


Throughout history, many chose not to emulate Moses' example. During the Second World War, for example, when it appeared that Nazi Germany will attempt to capture England, Mahatma Gandhi offered the British the following advice:

"I would like you to lay down the arms you have which are useless for saving you or humanity. You will invite Herr Hitler and Signor Mussolini to take what they want of the countries you call your possessions. Let them take possession... If these gentlemen choose to occupy your homes, you will vacate them. If they do not give you free passage out, you will allow yourself, man, woman and child, to be slaughtered, but you will refuse to owe allegiance to them."

To the Jews of Germany Gandhi offered a similar message:

"I am as certain as I am dictating these words that the stoniest German heart will melt [if only the Jews] adopt active non-violence. Human nature ... unfailingly responds to the advances of love. I do not despair of his [Hitler's] responding to human suffering even though caused by him." Had Gandhi convinced the English to lay down their arms and practice non-violence, the Jewish people would have been annihilated, democracy and human rights would have disappeared, and the world would have been plunged into a new Dark Age of unimaginable cruelty. War, while always unfortunate and painful, is not always evil; sometimes, fighting a war is the most moral thing to do.

Astonishingly, the nation that Moses created -- Israel -- has in recent years emulated Gandhi rather than Moses. With the Oslo accords, we invited our sworn enemies to take parts of our homeland in the belief that they would reciprocate with peace and good will. Instead of declaring outright war against the terrorists and their infrastructure, we chose to practice restraint and non-violent diplomacy. Many of us believed then, and many Jews still believe, that the stoniest terrorist heart will melt in response to our peaceful advances.


Chamberlain and Churchill


In 1938, British Prime Minister Neville Chamberlain appeased Adolf Hitler, by allowing the German Fuhrer to occupy the Sudetenland for a mere promise of peace. Chamberlain then returned to England and announced that he had brought "Peace in our time." Winston Churchill denounced him as a naive appeaser who believed that he could buy Hitler's good will by giving in to his immoral demands. "You were given a choice between war and dishonor. You chose dishonor and you will have war."

Sadly, the same has transpired with Israel. By relinquishing parts of our homeland, Israel chose dishonor. In return, Israel received war. Today we are in the midst of the worst bloodletting in Israeli history. The relentless terror is a direct result of the tragic policy that believes in appeasing terrorists and not destroying them. Appeasement is suicidal for the innocent and ensures victory for the evil.

The terror war on Israel, like World War II, is a war against the Jews. Losing is catastrophic. Losing is not an option. This is no time for appeasement or restraint. This is a time for righteous might.

The prophets of Israel were the first to conceive of peace as an ideal. Isaiah gave voice to the great words engraved in the imagination of the West: "Nation shall not lift up sword against Nation; neither shall they learn war anymore." But the way to hasten Isaiah's vision is to fight evil, not allow it to flourish. At another time when the Jews needed to forcefully confront their enemies, the prophet Joel declared, "Beat your plowshares into swords, and your pruning hooks into spears." The use of moral violence must always be the last resort. But when all other attempts fail, righteous might is the only response to immoral violence.

B"H

Just Do Something
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You have to do something. What you choose is not the issue here. Neither are all the neat little tricks and conniving of any significance. All that really matters is that you do your job honestly and as best you know how with the talents and skills you were given and G-d will bless you in whatever you do.





A Daily Dose of Wisdom from the Rebbe
-words and condensation by Tzvi Freeman
Tevet 18, 5767 * January 8, 2007

B"H

Edit Your World
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We were handed a red pen and an eraser and told we can rewrite reality. If the storyline doesn't look so nice, we can change that. Even if the outcome is what we deserve and what logically follows by our actions, it can still be edited out.

Our editing tool is our confidence in G-d's kindness. Believe it will be good, and you will make it so.





A Daily Dose of Wisdom from the Rebbe
-words and condensation by Tzvi Freeman
Tevet 13, 5767 * January 3, 2007